creation

From my current perspective I can feel a sense of relief. While some struggle to recover, still, after years and years I no longer struggle. I am grateful for your love. I am happy that we could share a part of our lives together. I learned so much about myself. I learned about my dark parts too. The couple is a mixture of two worlds, sometimes colliding and thrashing about. It isn't always smooth and comfortable. The illusion of 'happily ever after' is so rare. That does not mean it was bad.

Couples are the sculpture they create. We can judge from the outside other couples creations. "I would have made it this way." or "I would have added a little of that." But they are not our sculptures. That couple created what they did from within themselves. They dragged a little from childhood, a little from teen years, some from a job, parts from books, items from friendships, nonsense from the world outside, added a lot of heart and blended. Yet, the project is never finished. Until one leaves.

You left. You didn't want to, but the cosmos called you to their collective so our sculpture was finalized. When I look at our creation I see smooth, round curves and spikes and colors melting and I see limbs reaching for the sky. It is not bad art or great art it is OUR art to be appreciated by us and those who know us best. I can now look at our carving and see the beauty in our design, sometimes it was haphazard sometimes it was artfully crafted. It is done.

So now I am holding it reverently in my mind, turning it over, admiring and wishing I could have some a little different but it is not to be refashioned. It exists for all eternity as we created it together.

And it is pleasant.