what you say

Words. Your words, they affect me. They roll around in my head for days, and months. Each time I bring them forward in my mind and relive them. Sometimes they affect a private smile and no one knows why. I sit in a bored, crowded room with silent people as we pass time waiting for something, some appointment, some service and I smile. The mundane event is now a repeat of the place and time you first spoke your words to me.

Some words tickle me on the inside and I blush. Other words caress my inner ear. Often I feel them rolling around my belly. Sometimes they even tingle. I love what you say. I love you.

all it's ever been

No one else came before you, it has always been you. In the depths of my being I feel you. Permeating my mind, my body, you are everywhere. And have been in all ways. My life has been re-imagined and it is your face that fills my memories, your voice that resonates in my thoughts and dreams as though it has forever been thus. Time before has blended with the time that is now.

You replace all that was, the past is dimly lit with other recollections, replaced with your glowing love. I am more foolish now in this middle age, laughing at myself freely. Throwing away the ridiculous restraints of youth I can embrace everything with abandon. I embrace you with my youthful heart. I drop inhibitions like a robe around my feet and emerge in wholeness and abandon, just you and me exist, have always existed.

What I thought was love before was not, it was the apprenticeship.